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08/22/2006
Fucking job...
So monumentally depressed.
I have sent out over a dozen resumes in the past 5 weeks.
I received exactly one telephone call in response.
One.
I had the interview last night.
He was such a nice, laid back guy.
In a little law office not even 10 minutes away from my house.
He was willing to let me work on my own files, without a lot of heavy supervision.
He was even willing to have flexible hours. I would have been able to have one more whole day a week to be at home with Lucy.
But…but…
It would have been a pay cut. A small pay cut, but a pay cut nonetheless.
And…and…
No medical insurance of any kind.
So it was unacceptable.
And I turned him down.
And I am seeing endless weeks and months and years of commuting almost 2 hours total every day back and forth to a job I hate for a boss that treats me like a red-headed stepchild for not enough money and did I mention that I only have around 6 “real, awake” hours with the baby per day (at least, when those days are Monday thru Friday)??
I can’t believe I had to turn down this job.
I feel like I am never going to be able to leave the office I am in right now.
My stomach turns into knots when I walk out my door every damn morning.
so. monumentally. depressed.
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Hang in there sweety! Pickle's Papa will soon have a decent job, I just know it and you will be able to make a change for the better too. I know it is hard, I never had to do it and I know it's hard to leave that precious little angel every day...I don't know how you do it, but I do know you are strong and you will not crumble! Isle of View! Mom
Posted by: Mom | 08/22/2006
Aw, that must be so frustrating. Hang in there. The perfect job is out there somewhere. It is nice to know that someone else has counted the "awake hours" they have with their child, too. I thought it was just me, and it sound so terrible when you get down to it. Best wishes!
Posted by: Carrie | 08/22/2006
How cute is your mom?
I totally understand the soul-crushingness of a shitty job. (Can I say shitty in front of your mom?) Hoping The Boy gets a fabulous job soon and you are free to do what you love, no matter what pay or benefits it offers.
Posted by: Molly | 08/22/2006
How much does it suck that you have to turn down a job because it doesnt offer medical insurance. Its stuff like this that makes me so angry about the US system and how much your government craps on about supoprting the family and yet creates situations where this happens.
I'm sorry its so friggin hard, Lumi.
Posted by: Panda | 08/23/2006
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